I woke up this morning and had an epiphany while lying in Mountain Man’s big strong arms. Well, actually, he might’ve been the one to kick start my epiphany. After I said something about it being the first day of a new year, he reminded me that it’s now 2012. So we jokingly went back and forth about this being our last year together and how we better make it count.
Well, that got me thinking. What if this really is our last year on this earth? What if these next 355 days are gonna be the very last days of our lives? 355 days because supposedly, the world’s supposed to end on December 21, 2o12. 355 days is not a lot of time when I stop and think about all the things I’ve ever wanted to do with my life before I leave this earth. And I’ll bet there’s a whole lot of other people out there who feel the same way. I know there’s a lot of people who have bucket lists, either written down somewhere, like me, or at the very least, filed safely away somewhere in the back of their minds where they can revisit the list and add to it while waiting in line at the grocery store or sitting in traffic or waiting for the doctor to come in while they’re sitting on that cold table in that cold room with nothing but socks and a paper gown for warmth and cover. By the way, those paper gowns are on my list of most hated things. We’ll get into that another time.
I know for me, personally, some of the items on my bucket list cannot be completed without a great deal of money. Money that I’ve not yet had time to save up for. I’ve not even started my bucket list savings account with my credit union! I’ve been raising kids since I was practically a kid myself! There’s never been enough extra to sock away for Mama’s wish list! I always thought I’d fulfill my list much later in life.
If this is it, if these are truly the last days, then I guess that like a whole lot of other people out there, I won’t get to do all the things I dreamed of doing before I leave this earth. I won’t get to visit the Louvre and stare in pure wonderment at some of the world’s most beautiful and famous artwork, or see Michelangelo’s work at the Sistine Chapel, or sink my toes in the black sand beaches of Punalu’u in Hawaii. I may not ever try sushi or have coffee in The French Quarter. I may not ever get to gaze upon Christ the Redeemer in Rio de Janeiro, or try to get one of the guards to giggle at Buckingham Palace, or visit Paula Deen’s restaurant in Savannah. I might not make it to a beach that has white sand and crystal blue waters where I can swim with dolphins. I may never fly… anywhere. I might not get to try snowboarding or snorkeling. I may never make it out to Jackson Hole for the hunting trip of a lifetime. And these are only a few of the things on my to-do list for my life.
There are a great deal of things on my bucket list that require no monetary compensation to complete them. And it’s all those “little things” that I hope to really work on in the next few months. I’m a realist, so I know that I won’t be able to complete all of them. But, I’m also a woman who is full of perpetual hope and faith and I believe that good things come to those who wait. I believe in a great deal of things in this world, as well as the hereafter. And it’s my belief in all these things that’s gonna help me check off as many of my items on my bucket list as I possible can. Some of them, I’ll have to actively work on making them happen. Others, I hope will just fall right into my lap when I least expect them to. And it’s those things that I think are gonna mean the most to me.
I love life’s little surprises that make you smile like a fool for no reason and make others wonder about your sanity. Those are the best moments.
So, while I personally don’t believe that the Four Horsemen are gonna come galloping up in 355 days, and I really doubt that I’m gonna make very many changes to my daily life as a direct result of an impending “end”, I do however think I’m gonna live my life with more purpose this year. I don’t do New Year’s resolutions. But if I did, savoring something, big or little, each and every day would be mine.